First look at Kelly Holmes: Being Me – as new documentary reveals Olympian’s mental health struggles
She recently described herself as “finally free” as she came out as gay after hiding it for more than 30 years.
And Dame Kelly Holmes, 52, is set to open up even more in her brand new documentary, Kelly Holmes: Being Me – which airs on ITV this Sunday.
The documentary focuses on the emotional journey she’s been on over the past three decades as she hid her sexuality – and its impact on her mental health.
New show: First look at Kelly Holmes: Being Me – the new documentary shows the Olympic champion revealing her mental health issues
At first glance, the Olympic champion seems eager to talk as she gets personal, sitting at a table to meet loved ones.
Another scene shows Dame Kelly in a room decorated with her winning newspaper articles, medals and successes – as she stands solemnly before the collection.
The one-off documentary is meant to feature the people closest to the runner and see her discuss personal matters she has never spoken about publicly before.
Tough: A scene shows Kelly in a room decorated with her winning newspaper articles, medals and successes – as she stands solemnly in front of the collection
Opening: The one-off documentary is set to feature the people closest to the runner and see her discuss personal matters she’s never spoken about publicly before
Speaking about the documentary on Instagram, Dame Kelly wrote: “The documentary taught me so much about generational and social advancements as it relates to the LGBTQ+ world.
“I’ve been a little oblivious and ignorant to all of this, but I hope to one day be an authoritative voice and also have my doc help a lot of people on all levels,” she continued.
While she also shared, “It’s been an emotional journey, I’m sure a lot of people will resonate with different parts of my story.”
Emotional: She described the documentary as “an emotional journey” as her loved ones helped her along the way
“Fear, grief, sport, military, mental health, family and the need for freedom to live their lives. I cried, smiled, laughed and cried and I’m sure you did too!
“Please look, this is the story of why I couldn’t be me, but how really strong we all are as people.”
In a new clip from the documentary, the Olympian admits she ‘lost the plot’ when her mother Pam Norman died in 2017, adding that her mother would be ‘so proud’ of her finally speaking out about her sexuality .
Candid: In a new clip from the documentary, the Olympian admits she ‘lost the plot’ when her mother Pam Norman died in 2017, adding that her mother would be ‘so proud’ of her finally speaking out on his sexuality
Strong bond: Dame Kelly shared emotional memories of her late mother Pam Norman in the new documentary (pictured together in 2005)
Dame Kelly had come out to her mother and explains that she wanted me to always be me. And I just couldn’t. It consumes my life all the time, this worry and fear, which has been there since I was a child.
The star appeared on This Morning on Monday – taking part in her first TV interview since coming out the following day.
Breaking down live on TV, she tragically admitted that she ‘never felt like she was ever happy’, but is now able to live her life authentically after years of being hide his sexuality in fear.
Social media: Speaking about the documentary on Instagram, Dame Kelly wrote: “The documentary taught me a lot about generational and social advancements in regards to the LGBTQ+ world”
Journey: This is an emotional journey, I’m sure many people will resonate with different parts of my story,’ she wrote
“The documentary was a way for me to express the fear I had for so many years and to allow myself to have a platform to hopefully educate and inform people about the complexities of being maybe also gay. I’ve never said this before — that I’m a gay woman — publicly on TV,” she explained.
Continuing: “People don’t realize how hard it is to say that word. I’m not ashamed and I have been since I was 18, but it’s really hard when you’re documenting different parts of your life that you had to keep inside.
Presenter Holly explained that part of the reason Dame Kelly kept her sexuality a secret was because she was in the military and until 2000 it was illegal to be gay in the military.
‘I’ve never been happy but now I can’: The star appeared on This Morning on Monday – taking part in her first TV interview since coming out the next day
Dame Kelly revealed: “You were read the rules of homosexuality in the army – that it was illegal to be gay – and yet you cannot change who you are”. So I grew up with this fear in my head because I loved being a soldier in the army. It was something I really wanted to do.
“I was in there for almost 10 years and yet I couldn’t express it. It was really difficult, because there were interrogations. In the documentary, I explain it a lot and talk to people who have been through shocking things, but for me personally, having raids was scary, humiliating, embarrassing.
Kelly Holmes: Being Me airs Sunday at 10.20pm on ITV.
Watch: She spoke on the daytime show to promote her documentary
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